where it all started

I knew I liked writing from a young age, and wrote poetry and stories throughout school.  When I finished college, I was reluctantly coming to terms with my sexuality.  Being gay was something that had been deemed unnatural throughout my life, so I was in a horrible place in my head.  It was the first time I felt completely alone in a big family.  I remember reading someone’s poetry on a blog which made me feel things I couldn’t put in to words myself.  I felt like I wasn’t alone anymore, sat reading a faceless stranger’s words on a web page.  I wanted to put my thoughts into words to help someone like I had been helped, so I wrote my own poetry from then on.  Eventually, I completed an English and Creative Writing degree at Manchester Metropolitan University where I wrote my first poetry collection, and I have written every day since.   

The easiest thing I found to do whilst working full time, and not having the abundance of time I had at university to immerse myself in creativity, was to start a daily journal.  On the first day of 2018, I started writing about how I was feeling, and what I learnt about myself that day.  On January 1st 2018, I remember sitting in the armchair by the window at my mum’s house, surrounded by Christmas decorations, and writing the words: “I don’t like the person I am”.  This was purely based on my personality and mindset, having grown to love being gay in my early adult life, but there was something missing.  I made it my mission to learn something new about myself each day and grow from it.  

In some ways, I am a typical Virgo.  Mostly in the sense of wanting to share everything I learn with anyone who will listen.  And in true Virgo style, this blog may give advice to those who never asked for it.  I certainly do not have all the answers, but I believe my higher self does, and I have tapped into this intuition many times since starting to get to know myself better.  Sharing experiences with people has always been one of my favourite things to do, whether it be in storytelling or advice, because I know that what I share has made me a happier person and I would love for other people to have the same kind of joy that I have experienced. 

I am in awe of the complexity of nature and how much we can learn from it, and usually incorporate the universe in my writing. I believe we all share one consciousness and are all able to access a higher power through meditation and reflecting on the self.

I hope you enjoy reading my posts as much as I enjoy writing them.

Sending positive energy,

Grace x